Ok, so...

Juan is at Burning Man. It burns tonight. If he is feeling particularly amiable, he will have an amazing time.

When I think about him there, I just want him to be as happy as possible...

I have a friend here in Panama who is getting married on wednesday or thursday. I was with him when he met the girl. Its like a new form of arranged marriage. He wants to become a panamanian citizen, she wants 400 bucks. In other immigration news, my two roommates got stopped by the police at their work. They are here illegally, having overstayed their tourist visas. They are now stamped. Next time they have a run-in with the police, they will be arrested.

I don´t know how to feel for William and Patricia. The police know where they work. They are not supposed to be working here. I mean, I´m all for following the rules, but when its as important to their health and wellbeing as it is, then it is important to not follow the rules to sustain yourself. they are both (all three, including the one getting married) here for work. they say there are very few if any opportunities to work. One has a child to support back in Colombia. He misses her every day but he feels that he´s making the right decision. They are all doing what they have to do to make their lives better. Following the american, worldwide dream.

Which is best, opening borders and allowing all to just naturally sort out, or to close off borders and keep opportunities for citizens? Its a tough question. Coming from America, I´d like to keep my opportunities and priviledges to myself. But it was luck to have been born where I was. Maybe its not so bad...

Tonight a party, but I can´t wear my new heels for one reason. I already tower over most people, and with four-inch heels I´d be HUGE. In US it will be ok, but poor Juan. I love him, and I really hope he will feel like a pimp when I am five inches taller than him.

Man, sometimes I

I slept for like, 10 hours last night. I was supposed to go out, but was missing my family, California and my amigos alot. I am going home soon!! I am starting to feel at home here, but nothing like compared to how I would feel at home.

I haven´t pushed my limits enough here. I don´t want to. I´m confused about the rest of my life. I don´t know. Its special, and then not so much. I feel that I have a lot of ___ inside me, but then again, maybe not.

I am taking the bus to the beach tomorrow with Victor and Ruby. I want the surfer guy to go with us